knot.

when i said a complication in the plan
i should have said A GIANT KNOT IN THE PLAN.
because...

i know this guy marshall.
he lives in sc.
far away.
but i have known him for almost 6 years.
and i have loved that boy somethin fierce for almost 5 years now.
and he and i want to be together but the distance is in the way.

and hes super sweet.
i wake up to texts every morning
that say hey cutie.
and that he misses me.
i love him with all my little scene heart.


but.
as always there is a but.

lorien is the sweetest guy i know here in wi.
i wanted him last year.
but he had a gf. and i wont mess with that.
but we have always had a really flirty friendship.
and now i am gonna go for it.

i love marshall i really do.
but i cant be with him until the summer.
and i want to give lorien a try.

marshall and i have waited for so long to be with eachother.
i think we can wait til this summer.

i know he loves me.
and i know i love him.
so much.

but this is crazy.
i have to give it a shot.