12 days.
12 amazing days.

corywilliamgumble.
<3
its yours.

what the hell

six days.
woot woot.

well my sister has made the biggest mistake EVER.
and wont break up with some emo retard.
because he said he'd kill himself if she did.
FUCK HIM.
hes 18 shes 14
end of story.
gross as shit.

yeah im dating an 18 year old but im almost 17
not so bad.

wtf casey.
you are capable of making better decisions.
i know you.
WORK ON THAT!!!

bullshit.

i am gettin really fed up with how people are treating me.
what have i done to be single out?
and treated like an ass.

is me being happy a crime?
honestly.
i dont fucking get it.
like these have been the happiest four days of my life.
but people are starting to bring me down.

and it hurts.
because im rebuilding my emotional internal structure.
piece by piece.
and they keep tearing me down.
im sick of it.

FUCK YOU GUYS.

smilesss.

so.
as of aboutsss nine thirty-ish
on october 17 2007
i am seeing corywilliamgumble.

and its crazy and scary at the same time.
but it really isnt.
im just kinda in shock.
because i have known him for so long.
and we know eachother pretty well.
but this is a dimension of our "friendship"
i never thought would happen.

im happy really happy.
dont get me wrong.
i have my backup plans.
as always.
haha.
gotta have those guys that you kinda flirt with.
just for kicks.
and its not harming anyone because we are both taken and nothing will come from it.
but its still fun.

alexcoffman.
whoa.
purrdy boy.
fo sho.

if he was single.
and i was single.
me + him + my room = mmhm fun.

haha
skankalicious.
yeah im retarded.
but i finally got my boy.

and i am satisfied for now.
i cant complain too much.
life has had its twists and turns.
but its led me time and time right back to him.
and i guess it was our time now.
and never before.

we both grew up a lot over the summer.
and i mean im almost 17 now.
zowwies.

exciting i know.
less than 2 months to go.
yeahhh.
dec 14 baybeee.

peace out.
its lunchtimess.
emma.

so um yeah.
as always the weekends change everything.
i go from dating someone i wanted to date last year.
who does some very shady things.
to being fed up with him.

and having cory who i have wanted since god knows how long.
to finally man up and say yeah i'll do this.
well basically.
different words.
same meaning.

i have wanted to be his for a long time.
it took a lot to not kiss him on friday.
and i still held his hand.
which i know isnt that bad.
but i still hate the idea of cheating at all.
i mean im dating chad for less than a day and im holding someone
elses hand.
a bit wrong.
but i dont regret a thing.

i dont do that.
i dont regret a damn thing.
i live my life.
to the fullest.

so much love kiiids.
emma.

wow "strange changes"

yeah so matt turned out to be the biggest duche bag yet.

and i found someone new.
of course.

but one problem.
a psychotic BITCHH of a gf.

yeah and the whole month break thing that i can't break.

i just hate my situation.
my parents are probably getting divorced.

they dont really know.

and all of this is starting to weigh heavily on me.
and idk how much longer im going to be able to be the strong supportive one that has all the answers.

because im running out of energy and hope.

everytime that i like someone they end up leaving me or they end up having a gf or something worse.

it never fucking ends.
EVER!!!!

just fucking choke me.
do it.

much love kids.

emma elizabeth.