finding lyrics that make me happy again.
and make myself pick me up off the floor are the best.
Fuel is the master at that.
"Last Time"
I'm not the first you sucked down
I drank your pleasure slow
Then stumbled out from your veil
Still I've come for you tonight
Choke my faith and stab my pride
And tell myself that
This is the last time
This is the last time
This is the last time now
I'll bleed for you
Preservation or predation
As I'm reeling I don't know
Crumbled I spill out of your hand I want to fall
And you see it all
And you'll just laugh when I say
This is the last time
This is the last time
This is the last time now
I'll bleed for you
And everything I feel I know you know
And everything that heals I know you know
And everything that steals I know you know
And everything that kills you now
And tell myself that
This is the last time
This is the last time
This is the last time now
I'll bleed for you
that song is great.
"Not This Time"
You know I put my faith in you
(I gave it all to you)
There's nothing left for me to prove
(There's nothing left for me)
And I won't be there when you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time
Where you stumble's where you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time
So I push myself away
(I draw away from you)
Sadness left here in my veins
(Sadness left for me)
And I won't be there when you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time
Where you stumble's where you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time
And I bled for you
(I bled for you)
This heart has tried
(This heart has tried)
The damage you do is what you never realize
And I won't be there when you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time
Where you stumble's where you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time
And I won't be there when you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time
Where you stumble's where you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time
that song always makes me feel stronger.
because i have way too many self inflicted guy problems.
and i get used way too often.
and i know that i shouldnt be as trusting.
but i believe people when they tell me things.
becasue i tell them the truth.
when i was a kid.
but i was an emotional wreck.
and getting thrown down a hallway by your dad tends to make you "man up"
i fought tooth and nail to get where i am.
i had to earn back respect from people i hurt as a kid.
i had to go to a whole new school knowing only 3 people.
and i went thru a stage where i hated myself.
but it was all worth it.
because now i'm the strongest i have ever been.
and after all that pain i finally was able to love myself for who i am.
and im not that same shy scared girl i used to be.
i can stand up for myself.
and anyone standing in this path of fire better get out of the way.
because i will not be pushed aside anymore.
i have come too far to turn back now.
i passed that point long ago.
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